WARNING!!!

Ok this is gonna be a bad one so if you get offended STOP READING NOW!!! lol ok its not too bad but here it goes....So if you cheated on your husband for all but 2 years of your 18 year marriage...are you entitled to ANYTHING???? no you arent or atleast you shouldnt be the only thing that you should be entitled to is a spot in HELL thats all you deserve. So if you were to get your EX husbands retirement a portion of it....do you think you deserve it? NO YOU DONT!!!!! You should get the money and either give it to your kids or give it back to him...the one who DESERVES it and WORKED for it!!! If you dont want to give it back to him then give it to your KIDS...the one you PUT THROUGH HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! because we all know you dont deserve shit but to be 6 feet under with your fat stupid waste of air husband!!!!! Why would you call to ask if he is retiring WHY!!!!!!!!!! WHY WHY WHY WHY would you be so stupid and so caniving that you conger (dont know how to spell that) up a lie to tell him so that you can find out if you are getting your stupid money that you dont deserve...I wish their was a law that could forbid this from happening...If you are a piece of crap wife and cheat on your husband for years than you are entitled to NOTHING not even a lick of money nothing just get out of our life!!!!!!!!! that would be payment enough! I want to be a law maker that would be bomb but I would be the only one who would make the laws and pass them no one else could have a say in the matter!!! I would give people what they deserve...DEATH! thats all she deserves and obviously I am VERY angry about this and want to hate her well I already do hate her and she knows she isnt my mother she is the woman who carried me in her womb to bring me to my dad thats all! she was never a mother to me just a piece of crap! I dont know im just so angry about this so that is all i am going to say for now!!!

Work

So when would be a good time for me to start looking for a new job? See at my current job which I have been at since I moved to AZ so almost 4 years I have been here and am very dedicated to this stupid job! I hate working here most days but it pays my bills and there is not much else to do in this stupid town so I stay and suffer it through. But anyways that was a little background...So things are not going very well in the construction industry right now and things are really slow so the owner is starting to get scared because if we arent working duh we arent getting money! So he is thinking about selling his shares to some of the people in the company but that basically means that he is giving up so when do I start looking for a new job? Actually this whole town is sucking totally! There arent very many jobs in this town at all so what I want is to move! I dont care where we move anywhere!!!! Actually I would love to move back to Utah but Brian wont so then I suggested that we move to Mesa because that is where Nicole and the girls are but he said no to that too...I asked him why he doesnt want to move and he said because he doesnt want to spend the money to move which I totally understand because it does cost a lot between the uhaul finding a new place and all the deposits it gets kinda pricey but I dont know what to do and when I need to start getting worried and start looking for a new job before it is too late....

So Hard and Sad :(

Ok so Nicole moved this past weekend to Mesa, AZ...Nicole is my sister all of you should know that who are reading this! but ok so they moved it was another sad day because of my nieces Jordynn and Madysenn. Jordynn is big now and she has a personality and talks and knows who I am so it was so sad to say bye to her...she was hugging me and I was like will you call auntie and she was like i call auntie...and then nicole told her to tell me it is gonna be ok and she did but it is so sad...and then mady she is just getting to the age where she is gonna start crawling soon and then walking and then talking...all things I am gonna miss out on again because I missed that stuff with Jordynn because they lived in utah at the time....I mean me and nicole have always been so close growing up so it was really hard to say bye to her we just hugged each other and cried. But I had a brilliant idea that I would leave before them...maybe than it wouldn't be as hard.....well it was hard!!!!!!!!! Me and nicole talk every single day and see each other all the time so it is going to be a huge change to not be able to just say come over or lets go to lunch instead we have to drive 3 and change hours to see each other. Jordynn and Mady are my whole life! I feel so sad without them, atleast I still have Brian but it isnt the same as princesses and sister....but hopefully this move will be good for them and they can get back on their feet get them a house and all that good stuff! so yeah thats all for now...

Here is Jordynn with her baby elmo....

Mady with her drums.....

School

Ok so I have been going to school now for almost a year....in May it will be a year so I am in my 5th term right now...oh what a joy! I am going to school full time and working full time! The only good thing is it is online so I can do it at my leisure...well this go around of classes I have Cost Accounting 1, Marketing Management, College Algebra 2 and Psychology. K I love love the psychology class it is so interesting! College algebra I hate it because no matter how hard I try I dont understand what they are saying swear! I even find examples of the problems in the book and I still get them wrong and I swear I follow all the steps but whatever! So I dont like the marketing class either I mean I dont know why I am taking it I dont want anything to do with marketing! but I know that even though my school is career oriented I still have to take some general classes but whatever...ok I have decided that I DO NOT want to be a cost accountant holy crap this stuff is so hard!!!!!!!!!!! I even read the book twice and still had no idea what I was doing or even what i was supposed to be doing! and lately I have been so lazy that I wait until the weekend to do my homework and it is due sunday night so that doesn't leave me much time to talk to the teacher so it is my own fault and the stupid classes fault for being so hard!!!!!! So I was up late doing homework so today at lovely work I have a migraine from hell!!!! so I am going to start getting my homework done earlier in the week and see if it helps!!! so yup thats all about school for now!

Liars

So here is my thought....why do people lie? I mean I know there are little stupid things that you lie about like no telling your boyfriend what money you spend of stupid stuff like that but why do people lie so bad that it tears people apart and makes the others freak out? What does lying accomplish??? NOTHING! All that happens is you keep lying cause you have to make up a lie and then make up other lies to cover that lie and it is like a never ending cycle. If people would just tell the truth every once and a while that might be nice but NOOOOOOOOOOOO they dont! They just keep lying and lying and I hate it and then I am in the middle of it and it makes me feel like crap!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr why are people stupid? im tellin ya if this world didnt have stupid people then it would be such a better place swear!!!! But no that wont happen either...I am so aggravated right now...and I dont even know how to spell that word but that is what I am!!!! So today sucked big time!!! but tomorrow BETTER be a better day or I am going home!!!!

First time

Ok I am new to this so I don't really know what I am supposed to do....so yeahhhhh i got a blogspot happy Athina! lol jk love you....ok now I am going to go play around on here and see what this is all about!